What's easy for you?

All of It...provided I am appraised of the entropic resistances to my growth...when I know what I am doing to stop myself from flying, I have something to work on....and if there's a resistance to dealing with such resistance, I deal with that....and provided I don't skidaddle into a Von Neumann's catastrophe of infinite resistance-laden regression.....somewhere along the line, the first baby step pushing my growth frontier forwards will be almost frictionless but for the effort of energy required to do the moving....

Something to be said about the emotional frontier....pain is not in itself painful...whether grieving or petrified with fear, these emotions are, in reality, disturbances in the energy body..or pranamaya kosha if you're into the yoga/samkhya/vedanta/tantra systems of labelling...and this dynamic of disturbance percolates "upwards" of the ladder indicating the vibrational subtlety scale...into the mind or manomaya kosha...which holds the experience as a tank holds choppy water....and labels it "fear" or "sadness"......(actually it's a bit more complex than that as there are really two routes between experience and apprehension neurophysiologically speaking and i cannot be arsed to write three pages of sciency goop this morning and would ya wanna read it anyway and if this is resistance to ewhat could come easy well bollocks to it....so now this blog may be a slice of sheer hypocrisy or maybe I should pop me head out of me arse.....>pwack<...that's better)...hey it's really sunny outside.....

Anyway, the mind labels the experience..the greater the disturbance, the more intensely the emotion is felt and if the experience is seriously intense then.... schllliiiiib....the aperture of your awareness closes around the experience just like it narrows round Bond in them old Bond movies before he shoots and the John Barry arpeggio thunders in....du-duh-duh-daaaaa-du-du-duh....good aperture thang that...Saul Bass invented that one...best film opening credits maestro ever....he did Hitchcocks Anatomy of A Murder with that groovy Duke Ellington soundtrack ...and Scorcese's casino with that cascading money ironically highlighting the out-of-control lifestyle which money brings by artfully filming the effects of gravity on the falling coins in high-res slomo....

Anyway...er...the aperture closes and this sort of defenestrates the Witness and it's all emotional drama made real because now you cannot tell the difference between Lila the Movie and reality (which is you watching the show) so you are more prone to generate karma for yourself in this deluded state...this Witness is the next stage up on the kosha system..vijnamaya kosha....when identifying with the Witness, this whole energy-disturbance labelled-up-as-drama thang is seen for what it is...a very-fused gestalten, object to you as subject, rather than the subject you writhingly are....and the expression of incomplete emotion to complete the experience no longer becomes shameful to do...shame being the contraction of these lower koshas, they sort of concertina into themselves to hide away...cos shame is also object to your Witnessing subject...

So having, feelinfg and completing emotion becomes easy when you Witness the process...in fact, anything becomes easy when you Witness it....it's a matter of seeing how things really are, not through the filter of personal dramatisation....seeing thus, you learn....the Latin root for learning is also that of disciplining.....self-discipline, when cultivated, makes things easy....

Like this drekking exam document I've now nearly finished...back to work...warmly, Jon x